Written in 1974," Confessions a tobacco smoker French "is the diary kept by the French writer Roland Dubillard while trying to get rid of his addiction to cigarettes.
Unlike Fabrice Valantine, hero of the famous " Smoke and kills ", here the narrator does not kill nothing but time, a concept which, as every smoker knows repentant or not, is the most cruel during weaning.
The narrator is not his first first attempt but this time for sure, draw the chronicle of his daily struggle will achieve its goals!
In a few hundred pages, it provides us therefore presented his thoughts Bulk of 14 days over who will succeed the fear of failing, the difficulty in changing habits and focus on something other than abstinence, the irreplaceable nature of the subject yet so futile the cigarette, bad faith and loneliness in which this approach immerses the more painful it must be final to be considered successful.
Continue to stop, day after day, became his obsession and a source of constant anxiety. Smoking, it did not arise from questions about his condition.
But now he takes a fresh look at the world now that he is on the other side of the fence. New smells appear. Unless he is actually smells forgotten by years of smoking?
" Cigarettes hollow, with its lit end, a burrow in which it is possible to forget the urgency of the world.
There is magic in this little thing we do not talk. Tonight in the subway, thinking that I would not smoke, he suddenly appeared to me that he had great courage to accept the world as it now. Until we accomplish this futile act, you feel taught to live seriously, that is to say, as if it existed, as if they were born.
Not by its effects, but even by its combustion, tobacco is oblivion, like alcohol. "p.36
should not see this little opus miraculous method to quit smoking but the story of a singular experience.
The narrator here is interested in close relationship, even intimate, that unites the to cigarette smoking, it is readily applicable in conjunction with Beatrice, the woman temptress he observes with envy and represents for him a second source of frustration.
" The pipe is an object. This is the possessive of tobacco. She remains, while tobacco nothing stays. She is aging.
This cigarette, the key is whether smoke, no matter by whom. But my pipe, I keep it in a drawer. It lends a woman often does not wish we could have her, nor the body of this desire. "p.91
" This is not a garment that is missing when naked is a light, as feared or as desired; that it is only possible or whether actual, embodied in one eye, or dreamed it.
So, what I call my hunger ceased to walk decently, almost invisible in her robe of smoke. She was naked. "p.106
On the basis of philosophical principles - that I could not always follow I admit - declined in a poetic form first and foremost, the purpose is intended devoid of critical thinking and illustrates perfectly the contradiction rejection / desire that operates in each of us when it comes to pleasure and addiction.
And for those who want to try with good resolutions for the coming year;)
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